Today I am a black hole
in the sense that I feel
as though immeasurable mass
has been compacted by an incredible force;
in the sense that I, too, am liable
to consume anything in my path
ripping it apart and into oblivion;
in the sense that
a terrifying amount of energy
is hiding unseen;
..
it is claustrophobic inside
this black hole
..
my muscles ache from it
..
And in this moment
it feels like my eternal reality
..
But if I can remind myself
that I am not actually a black hole
governed by the laws of astrophysics
that I am just a human
I can remember what it feels like
to decompress
releasing everything
from the grasp of my self made gravity